'A social pariah': How lonely Monica Lewinsky has failed to find happiness... and is STILL the butt of lewd Clinton jokes

A permanent punchline: Single Monica Lewinsky is still trying to shrug off the after-effects of her dalliances with the former President

She was the White House intern who found fame for all the wrong reasons.
Now, 17 years later, Monica Lewinsky is still trying to play down her scandalous affair with then-President Bill Clinton. 

She is single, her line of handbags failed to catch on and, according to the National Enquirer, is living the life of a near recluse.

Monica, 38, flits between homes in Los Angeles owned by her mother, her father and brother and an apartment in New York that is also owned by the Lewinsky family.

But her life is far from a social whirl of a-list parties and she is said to spend much of her time alone.

An insider told The Enquirer that Monica has given up her own place and moves between the two coasts trying to work out projects that may never get off the ground.

Her apparent goal is to set up her own public relations company.
The insider said: 'Monica's self-esteem is at an all-time low.

Happy together: Official White House photo taken in 1995 of a cosy-looking Monica with Clinton 

'She said she's been doing some freelance work for a friend who has a public relations company. And she's got some family money, so that keeps her going.'
Monica's sexual relationship with Mr Clinton, who is now 65, led to a Republican-prompted impeachment in the House and a trial.

Central to the whole episode were claims that she performed oral sex on him.
In late July, 1998, Monica had to turn a dress over to Kenneth Starr's investigators after signing an immunity agreement. 

A blood sample was taken from Clinton on August 3, and on August 17, the FBI reported its conclusion that Mr Clinton was the source of the semen on the dress 'to a reasonable degree of scientific certainty.'

THE dress: Monica's semen-stained dress that was tested in the ensuing investigation over the affair

The President, however, was found not guilty and he retained his office.
Monica, apparently, is desperately trying to live down her past.

The insider told the Enquirer: 'She's alone most of the time and is pretty much a social pariah.'

The source claims Monica has more or less given up on finding love.
'Monica still feels like she's the punchline to a dirty joke,' the source said.
'The publicity over her affair with Clinton ruined her chances of ever finding a decent guy. 

In June she made a rare outing with a small dinner party at Lucy's El Adobe Cafe in Hollywood.

A very public display of affection: The couple at a public event in Washington

An eyewitness told the Enquirer that gawkers at other tables were making jokes at her expense, while she looked emotionless.

'She stared at her food throughout the dinner and uttered maybe three sentences, the eyewitness said.

'It was a very awkward, uncomfortable evening.'

In March, MailOnline.com told how Monica is reportedly still in love with him and 'always will be'.

‘Monica still hasn’t got over Bill and would take him back in a second,’ a friend told the Enquirer.

‘She told me: “There will never be another man in my life that could make me as happy as he did".'

When Clinton's memoir My Life came out in 2004, Miss Lewinsky spoke of her upset at its contents to the Daily Mail, saying rather than being a physical fling, it was a mutual relationship.

'He could have made it right with the book, but he hasn't. He is a revisionist of history. He has lied.

Denial: In one of the most famous broadcasts ever, President Clinton wagged his finger and sternly told a national audience he 'did not have sex with that woman'

'I really didn't expect him to go into detail about our relationship', she added. 'But if he had and he'd done it honestly, I wouldn't have minded.'

She believed he made it sound like the dalliance came only at her initiative and was purely physical.

'He talked about it as though I had laid it all out there for the taking. I was the buffet and he just couldn't resist the dessert.'

Clinton wrote that his affair with Monica revealed 'the darkest part of my inner life' and led to his temporary banishment from the White House bedroom.
He said on CBS' 60 Minutes that he became involved with Lewinsky 'for the worst possible reason. Just because I could.' 

But according to Lewinsky at the time, 'That's not how it was. This was a mutual relationship, mutual on all levels, right from the way it started and all the way through.'

World's most famous intern: Lewinsky, interviewed by Barbara Walters, appears on a special edition of ABC network's 20/20 programme

Initially following her rise to notoriety Lewinsky tried to cash in with the handbags venture.

She even appeared on Saturday Night Live and hosted a short-lived reality show Mr Personality.

Then she attempted to drop out of public life. She even moved to Britain for a time to study at the London School of Economics, from where she graduated in December 2006 with a masters in social psychology.

But she could not resist speaking out two years ago, saying Clinton lied under oath when he described their relationship during an impeachment trial.


The claims were made in the book The Death of American Virtue, by law professor Ken Gormley, In an email to Gormley, Lewinsky made it clear she believes the president lied.


‘There was no leeway [there] on the veracity of his statements because they asked him detailed and specific questions to which he answered untruthfully,’ she wrote.


[Source :  dailymail.co.uk]